MovingLess
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Just dropping by on my 2nd anniversary of this long BFS road. I started this chapter in my life with a small twitch. After that I explored the world of google and the journey began. I will say that this message board was both a blessing and a curse to me. It blessed me as I met many wonderful people, that, shockingly, had the same or similar sypmtoms/problems as myself. This forum and a few of the great folks that inhabit it (you know who you are) literally saved my sanity. However, this forum also served as my achilles to ever getting better. I have found that awareness is a state of mind. I DO NOT believe that our problems are mental or emotional. I believe that they are real, physical and manifested by who knows what. I DO think that our problems are multiplied and feed off of the anxiety created by our minds. My story, your story, is as old as time and will be repeated again and again. Your body does something that is not "normal", you self diagnose through some means of information, your body and mind go berserk. Wash, rinse, repeat. I was lucky. After a while a gentleman on this sight, (not to mention names mario) was very candid with me. His advice, GET OFF OF THIS FORUM. For most, every minute that they spend on here, is another minute that they spend isolating their symptoms, micromanaging their health and creating an awareness of their bodies that is totally foreign to the human mind. For me the split was an instant, spontanious decision. I divorced this forum. It was painful. I lost a new found dear friend because of it (I hope that she and I can talk soon) However, the result was amazing. Out of sight out of mind as the old saying goes. I am not going to lie to you and say that my symptoms are gone or that I don't still have a very deep seated fear. But what I will tell you is that moving on and getting your life back trumps the self induced hell that we are, or have been in. Some time ago there was a thread titled something like where are the old timers? I'll tell you where they are. They have moved on. They have made peace with their bodies. I also feel obliged to say that another one of the reasons that it was easy for me to move on from this board was the participation of a few arrogant %%#%@!#* Sometimes people need to be told the firm truth, but the personal slams and attacks by some (one in particular) are not appropriate for most at this fragile chapter in their life. In any case, sorry to have gotten long, but I promised myself to come back at two years if I was still alive! For everyone that is worried out there, read BFS in a nutshell. Embrace what it says, listen to your doctors and move on with life. You too, will be amazed at the results. To those that I hurt, I am truly sorry. I did what I had to do, for me, my family and my life. I have it back now and hope and pray for each and everyone of you.My deepest respect,Kevin
) I am happy to hear you have moved on with your life. Hopefully this post will inspire others to move along with their lives too. Thank you for coming back and posting this, you are one of the good ones.