Heheheh...I really think we all need to have a big get-together where we can chat about what's killing us. BYOTD (bring your own terminal disease).I went through the brain tumo(u)r scare in early June and, because it was so delightful, decided to go through it again. Headaches led me to the neurologist who took my history and did a neuro exam (including checking pupils) and diagnosed migraines. He didn't mention tumors until I brought it up. He said he'd be "very surprised" because tumors usually present with neurological symptoms, which I suppose I didn't have. I walked out feeling pretty relieved.My relief didn't last long, because over the next several days, lo and behold, I *had* neurological symptoms--or so I thought. Slurred speech, mixing up words, inability to calculate the tip at a restaurant, getting off the elevator at the wrong floor at work (after being on the same freaking floor for nine years). Then I had an MRI which was, for our purposes, negative. Relief! At least, temporarily...Due to side effects, I stopped taking the med that the neuro prescribed for the headaches. The headaches had tapered off somewhat, I wasn't feeling anxious, life was good. For a couple of weeks. The headaches started back slowly, then a couple of bad days made me decide to try the med again and hoped I wouldn't have the same side effects. For the first few days, things seemed fine, but then I started feeling weird pressure sensations in my head in various places caused by head or body movements or exertion. Sometimes they ache, sometimes they don't. And a few days ago, it appeared that my pupils were different sizes. Sometimes they look different, other times they look the same. (Actually, I thought I noticed this sometime in the recent past, before the headache panic set in.) And am I slurring my speech again or mixing up words? The anxiety's back. I know the MRI was negative, but it was done *without contrast*. Maybe it missed something? Why wouldn't the insurance company pay for the contrast? Why didn't I just pay for it? And last night, I had a headache that I still had early this morning. More anxiety.I have a follow-up appointment with the neuro tomorrow and will hopefully get a sense about whether contrast would matter. (I actually discussed this whole situation on another thread somewhere here, and those who went through similar scares seem to think that it shouldn't matter for our purposes.) It probably doesn't, at least much. I might have to beg for an MRI with contrast just to soothe my nerves, but I have a feeling the neuro wouldn't order it because he didn't see signs of a tumor in the first place. Things could get ugly. (My GP ordered the MRI with contrast but insurance wouldn't pay for the contrast. I don't know if my neuro would have ordered it with contrast.)Anyway, I'm just struck by similar stories we share in our health anxieties. I mentioned my twitching at the end of my last neuro appointment (which was a follow-up for the headaches), but I'm not sure if I'll bring it up again. Not much has changed on that front, and I can only deal with one life-threatening illness at a time.
