Well it all started in december 2010... i'd say i was in and out of pretty bad depression because of all the symptoms etc and not sharing it with anybody (woops!

) for around 8 months . . . I then got to a point, where i felt like if i continued to let my self go mentally, it wouldn't matter if i were diseased or not because my quality of life was getting so bad.Its a very difficult almost 'brainwave' i experienced to describe, but to put it simply, i really believe depression and being negative is the easy route for your mind to take, but if you learn to control your mind slightly (

) and train yourself to be able to think positively, then anybody can pull themselves out back into reality.. Everyone will find a way eventually, my main ways were- to stop feeling sorry for myself, even if it was thinking about my family!- visit this site only occasionally, it became a part of my life at one point- not healthy at all!!!!!!! it really can and does make you delusional to reality- find a distraction- everytime i got a bad thought, i would quickly replace it with something that excites me (No, im not talking about sex lol)- listening to music channels whilst i slept to prevent me from thinking about DEAAAAAAATH - and MOST importantly, i considered what the advantages of me worrying about it all was... would it make me better if i were diseased? no... would it make it all go away? no.... It just simply meant i was wasting my life, lifes too short as it is, so don't waste it worrying about something you have no control over, and most certainly, even against all odds you may have injected in your mind, DO NOT HAVE.
