When I wake up of a morning one of my eyelids is lower than the other, I have a dent in my left hand and not one in the right, I have a dent in my right ankle that looks SCARY AS CRAP TO ME! I also have health anxiety, BFS, and all the same fears that you have. I almost killed myself several times in the begaining of this as well, key there is Almost, but I did not. I have 2 boys and a wonderfull wife that God blessed me with so I chose to stick around a while longer. I'm sure you have somebody, A mom, Dad, a girlfriend, or all of the above that love you, and you need to stick around for them. Time does make things better, but I will be 100% truthfull with you, my fears still catch up to me at times. But were not in a wheel chair, or bed ridden so we are still blessed. I'll pray for you to by the way, thats not me sharing my fear with you, but my faith. I'm not praying for you not to have a disease, I'm just praying for you to realize you don't.....God Bless