3 Weeks of Worry: Twitching and Pain

[beckyysunshiney]

So I am pretty sure that I have not had one minute of worry free thought in almost 3 weeks. Not. One . Minute.My twitching started out of the blue and within days went to other body parts. Shortly after I started feeling jelly legs and pain. The pain feels achey at times, burning at other times. I read the topic about dents and started inspecting. Sure enough, when I flex, my thigh muscle has a dent that you can see if you look down my leg. Not huge, but I know I can't be imagining it. Now I am barely keeping it together.I have an appt with my Gp next week and the mere thought of it makes me sick. I keep having these intrusive thoughts about what he will say. I know I have to do this, but it is making my anxiety worse.most of you have had a clean emg. I haven't even been to a neuro yet so this is all new! I KNOW I have anxiety, I KNOW that I have been VERY anxious before this all began. I probably have some form of OCD (without the ritual type thing) bc I have the obsessive thoughts and images I can't shake. I can't remember when i really laughed. I have 4 amazing kids that I am trying so hard to keep it together for. This is hurting my marriage bc my husband doesn't want to hear anymore about what is wrong me. Unfortunately this isn't the first time I have worried about something being wrong. Ugh. I sound crazy huh? I swear if you met me irl you would never know I had all this going on. I am the typical suburban mom.I don't *think* I have weakness. Who knows? What does clinical weakness look like? What will they test me for? I have a petite frame, but have always had muscular legs. I haven't worked out in a long time, so I am too nervous to go test my stength bc I am afraid it will make symptoms worse. I know that I don't feel like I can do much, but my legs are always on my mind? Honestly the twitching thing is worrysome, the pain thing and this possible dent is making it 150% worse. Would I have just started twitching first if this was ***? Would I be able to carry my 22 pound child around up and down the stairs? I need any sort of glimpse that this could still be ok?Thanks for letting me get it all out!

 

[JohnnyRocket]

Take a deep breath. The symptoms you have described sound very consistent with what many on here have experienced with BFS. The way your twitching started and how it spread is very similar to what I had, and more importantly is not the way *** is known on work. If you look for dents, atrophy, etc., then you WILL find them. Anxiety will make everything worse, but I'm sure you know that already!

 

[bfhopeful2]

I know where you are at...my advice to you while it's still new....advice that I got and didn't take and I wish I could go back....get off this site....glstay off google...dont learn anything about als...reduce stress....stay busy...let ur drs work it out....i got bodywide twitching two years ago and it's all stress....i got caught in a cycle and couldn't get out...im in one now....dont read my post....this is the best advice anyone can offer....i have faith that you are fine....now run away from the internet....its a dark place.

 

[juliette]

Macy,We all started a lot like you are describing. This week is my two year mark with this stuff. The best I can say is listen to your doctors and don't surf the net....it is full of all sorts of unsubstantiated crap that will not help you....Don't let the anxiety get you like it did me....I lost 20 pounds with the stress and put my family through hell!! Take solice in the fact that MANY have been where you are and are just fine. If the anxiety gets to be too much then get some professional help.My sypmtoms "exploded" just like you are describing and for me it has gotten better...Partly because I have learned to ignore the twitches...although my lower legs still go off a lot

 

[abbitBouncyBunny]

I am right there with you, now calm down you came to the right place. These folks on here are very helpful so please listen to them. I know how scary it is but I am sure you are ok. I have the same symptoms you do and so does alot more people.Please stay off of google, it about drove me CRAZY! I have met some very good friends on here the last few days and it don't seem as dark anymore. Again "Listen to them". God BlessRandy

 

[Sarah]

Macy,it´s easier said than done but you need to calm down. Most of us have experienced what you are going through right now. I was a complete nutcase for 4 weeks. It was the most horrible time of my life because I was sure I was going to die. So you are not alone; people on this board are more than willing to help you. And no, you wouldn´t be able to carry your child up and down the stairs if you really had *** . Please keep in mind that you would certainly have experienced REAL weakness by now. Talk to your GP about your fears. I´m sure he´ll do some exams that will ease your mind. And if you still worry, make an appointment with a Neuro. And like JohnnyRocket said: don´t look for dents!! Everybody has them (especially women ) you´ll just drive yourself more crazy....