pykrackersjasonzee
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Hi all, I came to this group 6 years ago after dealing with rhythmically twitching thumbs, perceived weakness, imbalance (etc+) for months. My internist told me it was all in my head, psychosomatic, a result of stress. We did blood tests, a Lyme test, 2 EMGS, a MRI and nothing. "Normal". My grandmother had early onset Parkinson's, and as a 23 yr old woman MS was a possibility, and let's not excluded the dreaded 3 letter diagnosis that only time would tell. These things loomed over my head, not feeling I had a concrete diagnosis to my symptoms. I always knew something was wrong, I felt it. I was chemically stressed, imbalanced in some way. Convinced by nearly everyone I was crazy, and starting to believe it myself. I was put on Zoloft and gained 30lbs in 3 months- still twitching. Eventually, as I grew to accept this BFS diagnosis, I stayed away from this group and WebMD (indulging in both made me worse) and tried to live healthier in general. The healthier I tried to live the more the twitching subsided. I started taking vitamins, got off all the prescriptions, twitched through yoga, got a fantastic dog who is my partner in the great outdoors, got married (to the man who stood by me through the madness)...Now that my husband and I are talking of starting a family, I decided to go make an appointment to go to a doctor of functional medicine, someone who looks at the big picture, because deep down I still feel like there is something off with me, something hormonal, endocrinogical, chemical, I don't know. Preparing for this, I've requested all my old blood tests. Flipping through them, trying NOT to reminisce, at the bottom of the pile are my tests from '05. Something catches my eye. An asterisk next to a result, my B12. While sited as normal at 218 (on a scale 200-1100) is a note from the lab:"ALTHOUGH THE NORMAL RANGE FOR VITAMIN B12 IS 200-1100 PG/ML,PATIENTS WITH VALUES LESS THAN 300 PG/ML,I.E. "NORMAL", MAY EXPERIENCE UNEXPLAINED NEUROPSYCHIATRIC OR HEMATOLOGIC ABNORMALITIES DUE TO OCCULT B12 DEFICIENCY."Hold on, WHAT?!?! Are you f*cking kidding me? I'm on the verge of madness now, crying with both anger and relief. My dismissive, awful, internist didn't read the fine print. I wasn't crazy, I just needed to take my vitamins. Seriously? What I ended up doing in an effort to be healthier, was actually me self medicating. I suffered emotionally, psychologically, physically for YEARS because this woman glanced over at "normal" levels. Truthfully, I haven't been the same since. Even though the twitching lessened (not gone) I still feel weakness, fatigue, migraines, "buzzing" and the FEAR. Starting today I'll take B12 in addition to my multi, maybe that'll make the rest go away, but still, I can't believe this. I'm having waves of peace and anger, relieved to know it wasn't all in my head or something more ominous, angry she didn't call attention to this and jumped to just dismissing my symptoms. The only reason I got to the neurologist was because I swore to her something bigger was at play here. She was glad to pass me off. Can anyone tell me what to do? I feel robbed of the last 6 years, I feel violated by the unnecessary tests and drugs. I feel like I was driven insane by this. Do I report her? Make an apt and confront her? Sue? It's not like I lost a limb in surgery, but I feel so wronged. Like I need my pound of flesh. This is fresh and I'm sure I'm overreacting, but am I? I don't think anyone else besides you all would understand.I don't know the moral of my story, take from it what you will. At 23 I was uneducated and naive, taking the doctors word as absolute truth. I don't think B12 deficiency is the answer for everyone, but who knows, it's worth a blood test if you're still seeking an answer. I truly believe there is something to this condition that the medical community can't (or won't) figure out yet. Just make sure to ask questions, get a second opinion and be your own advocate.Wishing you all very well,Kris