beensuggested
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To all,Haven't been around for a bit and it was not that I forgot about any of you. I was having some other issues. As some of you know I suffer from reflux. I started with that about 7 years ago - it was awful. At any rate, I healed and still take my little purple pill but I think that stress and anxiety from this year finally caught up - including my bout of it when I suffered a pretty darn good flare of this condition in May/June. Combine it again with the loss of my dad in February, my mom is still not handling his death - AT ALL and she relies on me to pull her out of her deep dark black hole, she is fighting with my sister who in turn fights with me, my husband's family has had some crisis and with my husband in Iraq (yeah that is really on the top of the list) everyone comes to me, raising my girls by myself, practicing and a few other things...so basically this is a no-brainer. At any rate, my reflux got so bad that I literally felt like I was digesting myself. So...I took a break to give myself a break. My husband came home on leave on the 20th of July and I took the next 3 weeks off - everything that was not him and my girls. No work...No extra stress...slept late....ENJOYED my husband. Here is what I found. I found that sometimes just being quiet is ok.I found that even though I felt weak...I learned to balance and walk around the above ground pool ledge we have to clean the pool. My balance has improved and if I can do that I am NOT weak.Vacuuming and skimming a pool is a zen experience. It is you and the water and you concentrate on what you are doing and it is the closest thing to meditation that I have come.Having a good cry is cathartic and makes everything feel better.I found that sometimes you should shut your mind off and just feel. Of course that is always better with a partner 
I found that you can help and share without giving part of yourself away.I found that things are never as bad as you think.I found that sometimes it is perfectly ok to sleep late and stay in your PJs until the afternoon.A glass of wine is not a bad thing.A good belly laugh is therapeutic.Talking about everything and nothing with someone you love is amazing.I am learning to say no. I am learning that I am as Christopher Robin said to Winnie the Pooh - braver stronger and smarter than I think.I will still have to see my GI doc because things are still not great but they are better, they just take time. But I am expecting nothing awful. But stress and anxiety will always catch up to you. Sometimes you can't change your situation but you CAN change your attitude and that is what I did with my summer vacation this year
SMooches,Kit
I found that you can help and share without giving part of yourself away.I found that things are never as bad as you think.I found that sometimes it is perfectly ok to sleep late and stay in your PJs until the afternoon.A glass of wine is not a bad thing.A good belly laugh is therapeutic.Talking about everything and nothing with someone you love is amazing.I am learning to say no. I am learning that I am as Christopher Robin said to Winnie the Pooh - braver stronger and smarter than I think.I will still have to see my GI doc because things are still not great but they are better, they just take time. But I am expecting nothing awful. But stress and anxiety will always catch up to you. Sometimes you can't change your situation but you CAN change your attitude and that is what I did with my summer vacation this yearSMooches,Kit