NervousnessNoMore
Well-known member
I posted several days ago that I have reached 2 years. I left this page many many months ago because I needed to get away from the thoguhts of these horrible diseases. for me that was the only "cure." I knew if I stayed I would click on every link, every article that tried to convince me that I was dying. I decided to go out and live. I also thought I will check back in when I reach 2 years to let everyone know I am in fact still just fine. To help the newbies. Here is the realization that I have come to. I have read some of the new peoples posts on here. And for myself what happens as your reading it is you think that sounds so absurd. There is no way you have a serious disease. You are just like us. It is actualy irritating to read. You want to slap the person for being so silly. Then you remember you were exactly the same way when you were early in this process. I give some of the long time veterans a lot of credit for responding to all the newbies. I would get so tired of saying the same thing over and over again. For those of you who go to the "other site" (yes the bad one), you know trfogey is the same way. He responds to all the frightened people with a gentle and sometimes more blatant slap in the face. But here is the reality. It does not matter what ANYONE says to you if you don't want to believe it. You have to WANT to believe it. There is enough info in the stickies on here and the other site to tell you NONE of us are sick. Any neurologist will tell you the same (and they do tell us all, but you still don't believe them). If you had water leaking from your sink and you called a plumber. They would say you need to fix the leak being caused by a loose fitting. Would you in turn say. I don't believe you, there is no loose fitting. I think there is some serious disease that is eating away at my pipes and there is now way to stop it. The plumber would look at you like you are crazy, and leave. Your anxiety is no different. You go to the neurologist, he says your fine, but you believe there is some serious disease eating away at your muscles, despite being told other wise. So you let the leak (your anxiety) keep going, and it gets worse, and worse until some day you decide to fix it. The longer you go, the more emotional damage you cause yourself. Bottom line is this. You have to make a choice. continue to be irrational and not bbelieve everyone here, or take your life back. It's up to you, and it starts with not reading every article you can find on the internet, and trusting your doctors!End Rant.