Hehe, you are right. I do not have the third time neuro experience because I won't go until I can show him something serious like I mean falling down or half hand missing. They have scared me too much with the atrophy hand and wierd slow not BFS twitching already, that did a LOT of damage and as soon as I start around the doctors I am in the same pit again, they are not even diplomatic about the atrophy as you told, to see the other hand (the second online one wasn't, concluded it is atrophy and BFS has no atrophy and I guess that made the slow twitch then also not BFS). My WHOLE me is thinner on the left first neuro said, not only the hand so...Let it say this way about your doctor for the muscle bulk... It this happened to you (same remark from her) 2 years ago, would you bother to blink twice? No. You would do excersises. Now you have twitching and you KNOW about ALS such word brings the heck of you. I guess if my first neuro just said atrophy and I would have no knowledge I would just ask, ok and now what

The fact is for the last 8 years I was to so many doctors for sooo many things and they only found: 1. nothing that would explain my pain, 2. illogical things in my pain as of why the back of the thigh would hurt when I bend it should be the other way around - how woudl I know?, 3. They scared the *beep* of me (sorry the language). My doctor phobia is I guess understandable if you know my history. I am sure they save lives and eveything if you have something that is concrete. If they don't find anything they also find some wierd things...Let me tell you an example from yesterday from my mother in law. She has a slow cancer for 12 years. She got cold 7 days ago and she started coughing. I knew this was from the cold because coughing stays a long time after, but the doctor as she is a cancer survivor patient, wanted to be sure and send her to pulmologist. She took the x-ray and found nothing and he told her he found nothing, but it can also be that the lungs have some metastashes. I mean, did he really have to guess if he found nothing?My neuro could say when he found nothing wrong with strength and my atrophy in hand, that this is probobaly from a long time and nothing significant. They always seem to say that they can not find something but can be anything. My hypohondria doesn't like that. I went to eye doctor because I was having eye infection one after another. She really needed to check my eye pressure and it was too high and she sent me to the field vision test and there way ONE GREY DOT. She really needed to say this can be glaucoma. Obviously she didn't know! She sent me to glaucoma clinic and after 4 months of waiting (imagine my state in mind!) the glaucoma expert told me a little too high preassure, no field damage and the grey dot is INSINIFICANT, black dots matters.Now I do not go to doctor for such stupid remarks if I have some pain here and there, like a knee pain or shoulder pain or something. If they don't know wierd things they start to say... When half my muscle will be missing or thing start falling from ma hand or I fall down, then I go. The rest is the guess, his is as seems as good as mine why my arm is tremoring every morning.I was telling you this my and my mother in law stories to see how even a well intendd remark can make a mess. And we can also misinterpret it, maybe the pulmologist tried to say he found nothing wrong but could have been metastases if he would. Mya first neuro couldn't say to me I can not have ALS but he told me I can not have BFS, but maybe for him BFS is just something that can be measured by some test (he told a part of this so I suspect) and he could not say I don't have it because everybody can have it at any time, even with No symptoms and he just couldn't say it. And I immediately took the worst part on.I feel you are much calmer today from your neuro exam, I think it calmed you down anyway from that knee problem. About the knee I can not give you a good advice, if she didn't find anything (just the muscle thing

) that it will probably go away in months time, as my joint pains usually do and if it not red or swolen there is no rheumatism and ... 2 years ago you would not think 2 seconds about it (for fear, it obviously hurts you physically).Thank you about the nice words though about me. When my head is a little out of the pit I guess I can be helpfull, but when I am under I just cry for help. Oh well, I am glad it is better for you and the doctors remark isn't affecting you any more.Take care!