nameyisyBoby
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Three years of twitching, and I'm fine!
I was debating posting this, because I was afraid coming back to this web site (which literally kept me going when I thought I couldn't go on) would start me getting afraid again. But I need to help others, like I was helped here.
I owe everything to this web site.
Last Monday was three years since I started twitching. It started in my calves, then hands, chin, then basically everywhere. I suffer from Health Anxiety, so you can imagine my fears. Not a waking moment (or sleeping moment) went by without the dark cloud of *** over my head. For a solid 2 1/2 years, I did not enjoy life. I couldn't fully enjoy or devote myself to my tiny beautiful daughters. I always thought each "twitching anniversary" would be the end of my fears. I remember seeing a post after I was twitching for 8 months from someone who was celebrating twitching for one year. He figured if he went a year without weakness, he was home free. I thought to myself how lucky he was. Boy would I celebrate when I hit one year. One year went by, but with every new hot spot, I thought the clock started all over again. Well it took me 2 1/2 years to get up the nerve to go to a neuro. I wound up seeing two neuros inside of one month. I had two EMG's that both showed no denervation and no sign of neuro muscular disease. Only some carpal tunnel and ulnar nerve irritation. When I left the last appointment I got in my car and burst out crying, out loud. I cried over my father's passing one year before which didn't hit me until then. And I love my father immensely. Because only then was I able to think straight. Only then was I able to really focus on my beautiful little daughters. Only after the cloud was lifted, did I get my life back.
I still get a little anxious when I get a new hot spot, because my irrational thinking makes me wonder if the disease is coming, and my previous benign twitches were coincidental. But that's the health anxiety in me.
My point is, don't let what happened to me happen to you. If you're losing your life to worry, get checked. When you get the good news that you're OK (which you will because if you had ***, you would know it), believe the doctors, and move on. And think about all the people on this web site that have such similar symptoms, and they are all fine. Think about how astronomical the odds of having *** that presents as twitching. I also recommend reading "Phantom Illness". It's all about how real these fears are to us, but how irrational they really are.
I will post my twitching history next. This will give you an idea of the extent of it, and how obsessed I was.
God Bless....and if I can help in any way, please leave me a message.
Nick
I was debating posting this, because I was afraid coming back to this web site (which literally kept me going when I thought I couldn't go on) would start me getting afraid again. But I need to help others, like I was helped here.
I owe everything to this web site.
Last Monday was three years since I started twitching. It started in my calves, then hands, chin, then basically everywhere. I suffer from Health Anxiety, so you can imagine my fears. Not a waking moment (or sleeping moment) went by without the dark cloud of *** over my head. For a solid 2 1/2 years, I did not enjoy life. I couldn't fully enjoy or devote myself to my tiny beautiful daughters. I always thought each "twitching anniversary" would be the end of my fears. I remember seeing a post after I was twitching for 8 months from someone who was celebrating twitching for one year. He figured if he went a year without weakness, he was home free. I thought to myself how lucky he was. Boy would I celebrate when I hit one year. One year went by, but with every new hot spot, I thought the clock started all over again. Well it took me 2 1/2 years to get up the nerve to go to a neuro. I wound up seeing two neuros inside of one month. I had two EMG's that both showed no denervation and no sign of neuro muscular disease. Only some carpal tunnel and ulnar nerve irritation. When I left the last appointment I got in my car and burst out crying, out loud. I cried over my father's passing one year before which didn't hit me until then. And I love my father immensely. Because only then was I able to think straight. Only then was I able to really focus on my beautiful little daughters. Only after the cloud was lifted, did I get my life back.
I still get a little anxious when I get a new hot spot, because my irrational thinking makes me wonder if the disease is coming, and my previous benign twitches were coincidental. But that's the health anxiety in me.
My point is, don't let what happened to me happen to you. If you're losing your life to worry, get checked. When you get the good news that you're OK (which you will because if you had ***, you would know it), believe the doctors, and move on. And think about all the people on this web site that have such similar symptoms, and they are all fine. Think about how astronomical the odds of having *** that presents as twitching. I also recommend reading "Phantom Illness". It's all about how real these fears are to us, but how irrational they really are.
I will post my twitching history next. This will give you an idea of the extent of it, and how obsessed I was.
God Bless....and if I can help in any way, please leave me a message.
Nick