and, it is true that the stress hormones your body is releasing are going to cause much more harm - I bet you've got free radicals dancing a jig just about everywhere. If you're going to worry, try worrying about something like your blood pressure that you really could be having a problem with, due to all this worrying!! And, you REALLY should talk to a doctor who fully understands the extent of your worry because it seems to me they need to do more to help you (and by more, I don't mean testing your strength which clearly is fine- I mean medication or behavioral therapy). Do one of those fingertip push-ups again that we talked about last week and imagine me falling on my face when I did mine. Honestly, if you can do one, and I know you can because you did 2 before, there is no way on God's green earth that you are experiencing any weakness as 95% of the population could not do one of them. Then, relax and try to do something tonight that you enjoy.
Had a question for you. Is this the first time you've focused on some type of health-anxiety or is this a typical thing for you (but with other diseases/disorders etc..)? It seems that your worry is so excessive that this must have been something that has built up over time, with other health fears??