Thinking about BFS: Struggling

[mgardner87]

Unfortunately, I think about them all day and all night long when I'm not busy doing something. I've had way too much time on my hands lately and I have been consumed with thinking about BFS.

It is very mentally difficult.

God Bless, Mark

 

[sarahnicole]

Over 10 years later it still get's difficult at times.But thank God for Paxil it has been a lifesaver for me.

 

[ZekesTraveller]

I think about it all the time. The only difference is now I know its not going to kill me. It jsut makes me feel like shyt!

That fast food I eat and the sedentariy lifestyle I have been falling into will probably do the job much sooner than BFS could ever do!

When I am going to be at a location that will involve large groups of people I get anxiety and the BFS monster comes out full of rage. Here is the latest battle I fought and barley won but won none the less.

This afternoon I took my wife and kids to the Disney on Ice event at American Airlines Center in Dallas. I took the TRE train from Fort Worth to Dallas. Along the way I began falling into the anxiety trap. Lots if people everywhere (agoraphobe I guess). I have been trying to tapper of klonopin. Well it did not help since I felt like crap during the show while putting on a smile for the kids. The show was great (1:30 MIN). Anyways I made it back and scored a victory over the BFS anxiety monstor. A small battle but one to build on. With little help from klonopin. It will take some time but I intend to severly limit the klonopin while at the same time finding other natural mechanisims to manage this disease! Thanks God for Klonopin! I will probably never be off of it completly but I have proven to myslef that unwarrented anxiety has a 100% effect on how strong you respond to BFS. BFS I am coming home so get out of the way! I also intend to cut as much of the dead-doctor weight ASAP by eliminating or imiting all those *beep* follow-ups. I am convinced I have my dx! BFS! noting else makes sense. I do fear SS and Scleroderma since they have many overlap symptoms with BFS but presnt themsleves distinctly from what I have presented my dcotors with. If I was to have a deadly disease then I would have been glad to have found this group of wonderful people travaling a similar road as I am now doing. Anyways.....I said to much!