MarioMasher
Well-known member
Hey guys,I have recently been corresponding with a 2005 poster from this board, and I thought you would be curious to hear what he said about his BFS experience. This is from a PM I got from him just last night. I'll keep his name anonymous for now, but if he wants to post and introduce himself to all of you, he is more than welcome to. He already gave me the okay to post this. He also says a lot of things about anxiety and "self healing" that I have been mentioning.-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Hey Mario.My condition has improved since 2005. In thinking about the worst of times with the symptoms and the different messages I read on this board, it seems a variety of things cause symptoms. I think there's a term (equifinality) that describes different paths to the same place.As far as my symptoms, it seems they have been a result of a medical issue (bulging disk) and intense, intense anxiety. Being a person with the 'talent' (ahem) to obsess really put me through the ringer. Some folks view the process as possibly due to a virus, others view it as completely random. But for me, it was the combination of those I mentioned.The most difficult experience I had was not feeling I was being heard by physicians. I had visits with some very competent neurologists, but never left with any explanation for my experience. It wasn't until I visited a chiropractor until someone mentioned that a bulging disk could easily account for the bizarre symptoms I had in my leg.If I have any suggestions/advice to share, it would be to never doubt the impact anxiety can have on your body. I always believed anxiety could impact the body, but the specific and intense nature is what blew me away. And I don't mean for that to come across in the typical, condescending manner you often hear. Anxiety can cause genuine physical symptoms. Thankfully they're not going to cause actual physical harm, but they are real. For example, I had no idea what a fasciculation was until I went to a neurologist and he asked me about having any twitching. When I went for a short run one day later, I had fasciculations in every limb of my body after I finished up. Later I had tremors, numbess, weakness, etc. Many of those symptoms were anxiety-based.Thinking back to posts I read on here, one ironic aspect was reading people deny anxiety was present in their lives. Yet the very nature of being on a board like this indicates a person has a concern over their situation. The more they're on the site, the more they're thinking of it, and the greater their anxiety/obsessiveness likely is. No one can tell another person they're okay. If you're on this board chances are very good you're okay. Moreso, if someone has met with a physician and been given an indication there is nothing significantly wrong, the chances are nearly nil anything is wrong, particularly in terms of what most of us worry about. But I've been there and realize until someone convinces themselves they're okay, it doesn't really matter how many doctors they visit.Anyway, hope that's somewhat what you're looking for. I'd be happy to correspond as you'd like. Hope you're well.-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------