Prayer Request: Pregnant & Scared

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InkedMama

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Hey friends, For the christians on here..If you could just say a prayer for me. I am going through a hard time right now @ the end of my pregnancy. I thought I had this fear cleared with my EMG and my neuro in a STERN voice telling me I do not have ALS but I cant shake it and now my mind is battling BULBAR ONSET. When I say this has taken a hold of my life I mean it. I have cried sooo much today that i am having contractions. I am stressing my body out I am stessing myself out, I am stressing my poor innocent baby out. I cant keep letting my husband know how scared I am. He is sooo sick of dealing with this. I have to keep making up excuses for reasons why I am crying other than this FEAR. I just hide and cry and get it out of my system. I've prayed til I am blue in the face. So if your a christian and you dont mind..can you please pray for me. I need some peace right now. I dont want to harm my unborn baby with this stress. I know its effecting her and me because I feel the tensity in my stomach and the pain in my back and I know its not healthy. I have about 22 more days of this left then I can do what I need to do to get myself help. I've been at this 5 months now. I am worn , torn and beaten from worry. I thought for sure almost 3 weeks ago when I had my EMG it would be over for me and I could move on..Now I got this bulbar stress and MAARTENS post from ALS forums and its killing me. LovelyGod Bless Thanks for the prayers.
 
Lovely,I am praying for you and will continue, too. I know how that awful fear can overtake you. The verse I cling to when I get very fearful is Isaiah 41:10: "Do not fear for I am with you. Do not be discouraged for I am your God. I will strengthn you and help you. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." I have had times when fear has overtaken me and I would give it to God, but then I would take it right back. I felt like I was in a constant battle. Often husbands and friends do not understand because they don't suffer from the fear of health anxiety. It is a vicious cycle, but you will break out of it. Deep down you know that you do not have bulbar. I know it and so do you. Remeber this too shall pass.I am praying!!!!Sue
 
I am praying for your peace.We cannot reason our way to peace, we can only accept it from God. You are beloved by God, who will never abandon you, even if no one else can understand your suffering.
 
Thank yall for the prayers- it means a lot to me! I feel them. I can break through this I know I can. I to pray for each of you on this forum. Lovely
 
Give it to God, and accept that He will take care of you. Your mind is taking you to places that are frightening. I will pray for you, and hope you find peace. Talk laterVal
 
Hi Lovely,I'm so sorry to hear you're suffering, but I can SO relate! Give yourself permission to believe your doctors and believe you're okay - because you are. Somewhere in your brain there is a little logical voice that knows that, but it's just so overpowered by the obsessive fear. This sounds like my OCD/health anxiety type of stuff and it's so hard once these feelings take a hold of your brain. You're okay. You're healthy. Have you tried any old breathing techniques. Try breathing in for eight, holding it for eight, breathing out for eight while focusing on that positive moment when your neurologist told you that you were fine. It can work.I'm praying for you right now, OUT LOUD! I'm praying for calmness and clarity for you. You are not alone.Take care,Belle
 
Thank you all for the prayers. My tears have dried up....I feel peaceful. Tonight I am going to go outside and release these fears to God and accept that I have been giving a CLEAN BILL OF HEALTH by a Top neurologist! What else does he want me to do..EXCEPT IT, BELIEVE and MOVE ON! As I promised I would.So after tonight, After I pray...This is it. I am giving it to him. He is my peace and my strength and my ULTIMATE PHYSICIAN! He gave me the diagnosis of a benign con'd and now I just must BELIEVE AND NOT FEAR HIM and live with it.God Bless, Lovely I'll pray for all of you tonight as well. Not saying I wont come back to the forum..I always do usually..but I am going to REALLLLY give this to GOD and quit relying on a website to pull me through and allowing to feel GOD move..he says "be still and know that I am with you and that I am God". I've done EVERYTHING but be still..Night Night
 
As I am reading this, it brings tears to my eyes. You guys are the best. I love to hear how you rallying around to help one of us when a bad time comes. Even though few, if any, have seen one another face to face, it still seems like we really know one another. I can't say thank you enough for being there in my weak moments and hope we will be able to continue giving support to anyone going through this terrible time of fear and doubt.May God Bless each and every one of youCindy
 
Hello Lovely,I have already prayed for you. But I am also going to offer you some insights and maybe some tough love.I am a 40 year old man with a boy 9 and a girl 6. So these are my experiences looking at things from a male perspective. I am not going to get them 100% right.First off. Give yourself a break. Is this your first child? I remember my first child. I was so, so afraid of getting things wrong. So many doctor's visits. Don't eat this. Stay flexible. Take vitamins... yadda yadda...Do something you like. You like chocolate. Eat some. You like ice cream? Eat some. Do you like going to the spa? Call them up, ask to speak to a supervisor with kids. Tell them you are x months pregnant and upset. Ha. I bet they fit you in and take good care of you.Your child will adjust; within reason. But as you said, this mental thing. It is probably not good to have a premature birth. You need to get control of this.Back to giving yourself a break. Man you got lots of hormonal and body changes going on. When my wife was pregant both times she was major sick. And I was in major trouble. I can't remember the number of times I got in trouble for leaving a light on. I got to the point where, whatever she said, my response was 'Yes honey, let me fix that right away'.Now back to these twitches. You got lots of hormonal and body chagnes going on. And no woman goes through pregnancy the same. Lets go back to morning sickness, some women have it; some don't.Now, lets give you some hope. I'm not going to promise you anything. But what if your twitching was part of your baby process? Now before I get discounted and flamed. You have a baby pushing on your nerves and spines. Your baby is taking all kinds of neutrients from you body (magnesium?). BTW I hope you are taking your multi-vitamins. And you got hormonal changes. Who's to say, at least in your case, this is not temporary? Again I cannot promise anything. But what if?Now for some tough love. First you don't have anything wrong with you. No ALS, no MS, no blooper, nada. But I was reading about a woman with cancer. She was going through chemo and it didn't look good. She had kids. You know what she was doing? Taking her kids to Disney World!!! She said I want to do as much with my kids as possible with the time I have. Good answer! If I had so much courage.My point is, maybe if you shift your mindset away from yourself and onto your baby. Maybe that would help you.Good bless, mommy.Now get in there, get that crib done, get that spa treatment, get the hubby to rub your feet, and get ready. You will be bringing in a child into the world.So, so cool.-43RichyThe43rd
 
Hi,Just wanted to tell you that I do not ignore your private messages and that I do thank you about them. I'm just unable to reply using the website and I'm not sure why this is the case.I had/have all you had/have.Yes, you're right in what you are saying and being pregnant and having this nuissance must be even more draining.Did I tell you my wife is pregnant and she twitches too? The sickness is bothering her the most, at this stage, anyway!Not as much as I do, but quite a bit and everywhere, tongue included. Also for her, the Neuro could not see anything wrong and she has been discharged.The onset of the problem was kind of mysterious as pretty much at the same time. I had an EMG 3 months after the onset with recording from all the limbs and a fasic (single) on my r triceps. Neuro and Neurophysio told me to get lost...I went back to the Neuro mainly beacuse my wife wanted to be examined as well. She has been discharged based on the physical exam only, while I offered for the EMG that he wanted to have for one of us, I suspect for the records (and he didn't have mine).Even in his letter, he made diagnosis of BFS and clarified that there was not the suspect of anything else. You know that all this stuff is very bothersome and if are anxiety, or stress, to have triggered the onset (and I tell you that we both had a few years in a row of hurdles), then it would be not wise to think that the resolution is just behind the angle, because the anxiety about them is always there. I am not used to them, even after 14 months!But, one thing I can tell you: my physical performances have even improved if I look at them in an objective way (bench pressing, running time, etc...).So, take care of yourself and be strong for the little one. Our children are the reason of our lives.Well, this is the way I feel about them, at the least!
 
Let me say this Dee Dee. There was a great flood coming. Everyone evacuated there homes, but one man stood there and knowing that God would save him.The flood began, and soon after a boat came by."Get in man, there is a flood coming. If you don't get out of here you will surely drown," said the man in the boat.The man replied, "No, it is alright. I know that God will save me."Later that night another man came by in a boat begging the man to get into the boat and save himself. The man replied again, "No, I will be fine. God will save me."The next day came and the water had risen so high that the man had to climb on top of his roof. A helicopter soon came by. "Man! Are you crazy? Climb up this ladder and save yourself. If you don't, you will surely die this very day!," shouted the helicopter pilot. The man once again replied, "No, it is alright. I know that God will save me."Later that night the man was swept away by the currents of the flood and drowned. When he arrived in Heaven he found himself standing in front of God. The man felt cheated and said to god;"God, I have served you all my life, why did you not show mercy and save me?"God replied, "I sent two boats and a helicopter, what else did you need?"With that said, I just wanted to show the fact that prayers are not always answered in divine, ominous ways. The very qualified neurologist telling you are fine are the boats and helicopters God has sent to save you from the flood that is your, along with many other BFS's suffering such as myself, fear of ALS. God can do nothing more then give you a neurologist to tell you that you do not have ALS, which is exactly what he has done. He has done this because you in fact do not have ALS. With that said, you have my prayers. I know how difficult this can be as well as anyone.
 

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