Not Doing Well This Morning

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I'm not doing to well this morning. I woke up with my hand swollen again. The arch of my foot and calf (same dang one), is popping and jumping like crazy. My toes constantly feel wierd, like numb but not. hard to explain.
I'm just not doing well this morning. I went into my backyard and just cried and cried. I didn't want the kids to see me nor my husband. He's so proud of my changes that if he sees me cry he won't understand.
Oh and my stupid thumb joint hurts like crazy.
I know I know I've had all the "tests" and everyone says I'm fine.
Well then why the heck don't I feel fine. It so upsetting. I hate this.
I go see my counselor today but he can't take away my physical worries. Noone seems to be able to.
You know I'm not searching for things really I'm not but I was supposed to have a Lupus test about 3 months ago. I never went because the dr. kept saying I know you don't have it but heres a test you haven't had. Almost like giving me something to do.
I'm so sorry I'm rambling I just woke up really upset and frustrated this morning and i really don't have anyone else to talk to.
Carri :crying:

 

[Carrilicious]

Thanks Basso,
Boy I feel like a broken record. I'm such a baby I know.
Just say it, Suck it up Carri and stop whining!

Alright you asked for I'm sending them so I hope you can handle it.....wait a minute. Then I wont have any reason to come here and chat with my cyber friend. Jk
Thanks for the offer but I don't think you need any more. You just stay strong for all of us whimpy's out here.

I will send you lots and lots of HUGS!!
Carri