Needing Support: Scheduling New Neurological Exam

[InkedMama]

Hey yall, 1 week no chat lol Hubby took my computers away (both agree'd upon due to the obsessive nature I've been having w/ this fear). However, focusing on the future and trying to put the fear of *** out of my mind has NOT helped. So I scheduled another neurological exam for tomorrow @ 1pm. So tonight I have my lap top because I wanted to post- Because ofcourse I need support. At this point- I feel crazy. I keep concentrating on my "percieved weakness" I get off and on my left arm. According to my husband and when I am not paying attention to it..(I dont feel it)...I am reaking HAVOC on my life right now. I spent Fri and Saturday in labor in delivery with contractions (premature). Im 34 weeks. I hate myself b/c I feel I am causing this stress on me and the baby which is domino effect with my problems.I have to admit there is not ONE waking moment I dont think about ***. With every twitch- Every twinge it crosses my mind. Today I have had twitches especially in my LEFT bicept, back, jawline etc. with the roving ones every where else as usual. They had gotten soooo much better. I dont know if my anxiety is making it worse or what.I cant believe I am going back to the neuro, but...w/ this "percieved" weakness it will only make me feel better to know I have no objective weakness or EITHER I do. I read on my babycenter.com site that carpal tunnel is prevalent in a lot of pregnant women in the stage I am in of pregnancy which can cause, dull achiness of hand (check), tingling in fingers (check) and pain that radiates through arm to elbow to shoulder and neck (check). Got all 3. Where is my LOGIC? in the mornings when I wake my fingers are very stiff..most likely due to swelling-they appear swollen. Esp left hand.Here it is almost JUNE and almost 5 months into this. Always have they been intermittent , non focal, widespread, random thumps, Only a handful I Can see..(which today saw a huge thump in left arm) pulsated 5 times.Ok I have rambled enough- I just need strength for tomorrow. I am scared this time they are going to find clinical weakness. Although I've had these huge thumps on my left arm before I went to neuro and demonstrated no clinical findings, normal reflexes etc..I am just really worried. For those that have been to neurologist, GOOD ONES LOL.... if you are experiencing als in a limb- would there be reflex changes..I read assymetry is apparent in onset (as far as reflexes) and clinical weakness that could not be missed?Would fasics be constant..if that muscle was dying or still sporatic?Tomorrow at 5 months into this malady- if I have no OBJECTIVE weakness clean clinical should I be rest assured once and for all or insist on EMG?I am trying GREATLYYYYYYYYYYYY to reduce my stress..I think a EMG would be VERY stressful on my body right now. I've spent enough time this weekend in labor and delivery with some CRUCIAL PAIN and those who have had children and been "checked" for dialtion can RELATE lolI sorry I am back and I hope I am not a nuisance. Yall were probably hoping I was gone for good. lol. Oh well my friends- here goes another nights loss of sleep. I put my body in Gods hands. I pray for strength and acceptance if again I get a benign dx. and normal exam.Thanks all for putting up with me. I've missed all of you. I read the post my hubby wrote. I see it caused a bit of a beef BUT it was agree'd upon. It wasnt like he just took my computers away. I was trying my hardest to do better and was doing any thing to help my psycho way of thinking and unreasoning. Ookkk IMPUTS PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!Meanwhile I am going to try to go offer my services on some threads the best I can.Lovely

 

[rkeeli1]

PregnantNHappy -You have to realize something. You're pregnant. Producing another human being is a miracle feat and no small task. It does all kinds of crazy things to your body. Your hormones are raging, I'm sure.Here's a story about my wife when she was pregnant. She was reading a story to my daughter and all of a sudden the words didn't make sense to her. She didn't understand what she was reading, nor could she figure out what the next word was. Freaky stuff. I told her to go lay down and I would finish putting our daughter to bed. After that, I did a little searching on the web and came across something (and I'm not going to say what, because I don't want to cause any delusional thoughts) that prompted me to tell my wife that I was going to take her to the ER right than and there. We packed everyone up and headed to the hospital.She had a number of tests done, this and that (I'll save the details), and what the doctors concluded was that she suffered some type of migraine and they gave her the all clear. She's been perfectly healthy ever since.You're body is doing some weird stuff right now, and it has every right to do so. We just need to help that brain understand.Good luck. Be strong. You'll be fine.

 

[InkedMama]

Thanks Dbost, what wonderful help you are and your a newbie @ this yourself. I almost wish I had started backwards and did the emg first. Now I am stuck on rather or not I should. I dont see WHY I should if the neurological exam is passed with flying colors. Tomorrow..this malady is going to REST if I pass the neuro test again. This is 5 months into this annoying CRAP!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know a lot of it is my anxiety. I am finally prescribed my klonapin back in the last trimesters (as its safe right now) for anxiety. When I take it..my little twitches and my percieved weakness seems to "not be there as much" esp the percieved part.We know w/ something sinister. That isn't possible due to a pill. It takes time Dbost when you FLOOD your head with bad info on the internet about something sinister etc. Its hard to erase and quit peicing natural body reactions to it. When in naturality its just wear and tear and normal occurences that happen due to just being human. Its easy to throw it all in one bucket but...in all actuality its probably another benign malady in itself.Thanks for your post to me. It helps. I pray tomorrow goes well and I can ask a few more questions and TOSS the FEAR OUT OF MY HEAD again...with SUCCESS.Thank You ..Lovely

 

[ChrisSwiftly]

HiJust a quickie in case you get into bother with the hubby, you will be fine honest, i know you will.Good luck and keep your chin up, and remember it,s ONLY BFS YEH!!.Chris

 

[ChrisSwiftly]

HiJust a quickie in case you get into bother with the hubby, you will be fine honest, i know you will.Good luck and keep your chin up, and remember it,s ONLY BFS YEH!!.Chris

 

[cindyandco]

Good to hear from you again. Sorry to hear that you are still having such anxiety. Dear friend, I know that you do not have ALS----yes I typed the letters because I have been simply facing this demon of anxiety head on. I know your neuro visit will go well because I know you are just fine. You are experiencing some fatigue and perhaps some carpal symptoms, but you have NO impaired function. At this time, you would!! That is what my psych told me. I am still having symptoms just as before, but now I ignore them better. Just a note: (shared this with Denise) This is graduation week here. My youngest is graduating and I am VERY emotional. Sunday afternoon, cried for a long time. Twitching and other symptoms went up a notch so that I had to take an ativan that night. So.....you can't tell me that anxiety, stress, hormones and emotions aren't a major factor with this. I believe that is where you are. I don't believe you have a neuro-muscular problem, you are like me and have an anxiety problem, But hey, guess what------THAT IS TOTALLY FIXABLE!!!!!Hang in there---tell hubbie we love you and want the best for you and him and the new bundle of joy coming. Best wishes for tomorrow--will say a prayerBlessingsCindy