This evening I had to meet my boyfriends grandparents. I had a pretty rough day with my daughter because SOMEONE fed her to much APPLESAUCE and well it didnt agree with her tummy. Anyhow before they got here my twitches ramped up and I started thinking "omg what if I stumble over my words"..I concentrated on ABSOLUTELY EVERY WORD that came out of my mouth before I spoke it . NEVER did I mess up but I just had that lump in my throat like I was. When we were laughing over something my daughter would do...and I'd be talking..I wouldnt feel anything but if say his grandmother was asking me something directly and I knew I was about to have to talk I could just feel the tenseness in my tongue and voice and thinking dont stumble dont slur get the word out. VERY MENTAL. I also felt as though I wanted to gag.Well they left, I havent twitched since and I cooked dinner and I am now enjoying a glass of wine and speaking clearly to my boyfriend and daughter so I know its anxiety. I did sneak in my klonapin to (MIRACLE PILL).Point here-- and Im NOT trying to turn this into a anxiety center for people but I PROMISE you its a POWERFUL thing. How could I be soooo percieved "ill" one minute and they leave and I return to normal...Thats just to weird.I also have mitral valve prolapse which has been linked to twitching and anxiety. I am about to post on that as well and fibromyalgia as well. Watch out tonight I've had my wine and klonapin so you may see a few posts..taking to heart because it isn't often I feel like getting deep into this.Lovely
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