XinaMae535
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I've been up since 4am, wondering about this left thigh of mine. I have the twitching of course, all over (7 months in), but my left thigh and hand have had other partiuclar symptoms that worry me.My left hand - sometimes it feels weak, in the sense where my middle finger is 'off', like I can't really type like usual or flip through paperwork. This has come and gone. It's back now. It is accompanied by pain in my hand and fingers, sometimes. Right now, some pain is there. My right hand has the same pain, but not any of the weak feeling.My left thigh - I've had lots of pain, severity has ranged from dull ache to stabbing, also has come and gone. What is NEW is that the pain died down, but now my left leg feels weak (mainly the thigh). I've tried to hold my leg up in the air while standing for 20 seconds and it's much harder to do than with my right leg. So it's currently feeling weak, with twitching and no real pain, but it does feel buzzy at times too.I'm trying not to panic (again), but I am so confused by all of this. I reassured myself before with, 'Oh, as long as there is no weakness, I'm fine' and now I have weakness. It seems to be 'perceived' where I can still do things, but then I wonder if this will turn into clinical weakness and then when? So I'm left with constantly monitoring my left hand and leg, looking and wishing for any possible improvement, but also consumed by fears on it getting worse. Looking up pschycosomatic disorders (what I was diagnosed with, in addition to BFS, which I of course cannot 100% accept) and also trying to read things that can reassure me, but am not having much luck tonight.Can anyone help get me out of this? I just want to sleep, wake up and see that my symptoms have gotten better. Note - only nerve type test done was nerve conduction test on my hands and arms which showed no sign of myleopathy (all normal). I am trying to use this as reasurrance, but I've also read that nerve tests are not effective indicators as the EMGS.
) Thanks also to the rest for the extra help in remembering what is important and how effective positive thinking can be, on the mind and the symptoms! It is easier said than done so I am hoping my new therapist and more hypnosis sessions can help me get my control back.By today, I am feeling much better. 
The left leg weakness is just about gone. I found out that my whole left outer thigh is extremely hard and tight. When my husband massaged it, I was yelling and screaming, begging him to be very gentle and he said he was barely touching it. I can't tell that it hurts that bad unless it is touched. He said he noticed also it's all very hard and tight and compared to the rest of my thigh and also to my right thigh, and is the only place this is happening in both my legs. The most sensitive part was by/above my knee. I looked up all this stuff about the IT band and other stuff that it could be, but I saw some 'myleo' words in the searches so I stopped. Words tied to that medical term scare me, no matter how harmless or harmful the disorder/disease is. I will get over that one day.I just figured this part of my thigh is in a really tense state and to treat it just like any other sore muscle after exercise. After two massages and two self hypnosis sessions, it is still tight, but the weak feeling has passed. Feel so relieved about it.Same for my left hand. My hands still have this pain feeling to them, but I can flip through paper work and type better with my left than I could 2-3 days ago. I feel like this weird feeling in my middle finger is much better.NOW IF THEY CAN ALL JUST STAY THIS WAY AND NOT GET WORSE AGAIN PLEASE! I'M TALKING TO YOU SUBCONSCIENCE! 