The psychological portion of this syndrome, especially early on, can be the worst part of it. I was lucky - didn't ever worry too much really, and always believed my test results and neuro reports. But at first, I was somewhat concerned, especially after doing an internet search - like most of you did, and finding ALS.
This was over 5 years ago, and not many forums were available. The one I found allowed you to post annonymously. I posted the same question twice under different user names. Most responses were reassuring, but one person caught on and took me to task. He/She really let me have it, saying that I could ask the question 100 times under different names and the answers would not change. I was the one who had to change - to start believing the answers. To stop ignoring the evidence, to stop thinking I was going to be THE rare case.
Know what? This poster did more for me than all the "you'll be fine" posts put together.
Kerri, please...look at your question. I'm sure you've read the archives. The symtpom you ask about is one of the most common symptoms here, and you know it. I know that sometimes people need or want an answer directly to them. Maybe in the future when you have these doubts, you could email someone here. I'm sure you could find a forum pen pal.
I've been in forums before where this kind of thing happened. I was perhaps the worst at ripping on a whining poster. Whining is one thing, true fear is another. No matter how irrational an individual's fear may seem to you, it is a very real fear to that individual.
Kerri, refer to your post dated May 14 - and believe what you wrote. You have too much living to do to walk around dying, ok?