HELP. I was doing so well, my twitches had subsided, my cramps had pretty much gone, I thought it was due to acupuncture or herbs or positive thinking. Now I think its *beep*. Since Monday, my thenar has been twitching nonstop. I mean nonstop. And it is a real fasciculation, and I don't always feel it, which makes me worry more. My thumb sometimes moves, sometimes doesnt. I notice it mostly in bright sunlight, or under a flashlight. This makes me even more worried, because I thought the tiny ones are the ominous ones. I dont know if I can hold it together, but I have to. I have 2 kids and a household to run, but my heart is so heavy with anxiety, fear anger and dread. I want to get past all of this and just be the way I used to be, I owe it to my family. But I just can't seem to. I emailed my neuro, and hopefully she will order me an EMG on my thenar without seeing her...she is booked until late July, and I can't wait that long. To make matters worse, now my left foot feels weak. I always twitch on the sole of my left foot. I feel like fainting now.
Frequent Twitching and Cramping - HELP!
- Thread starter EmmyCee
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Emmie, you are worrying yourself sick for NO REASON. My thenar muscle twitches everyday... real fasciculations. They are meaningless. Please don't let yourself go down this path of thinking that a twitch is something bad. It's not, even if its constant it is still harmless. If you read my old posts when I was letting my anxiety beat me up, I wrote about how my thenar muscle twitched nonstop as well. That was over 2 years ago. Please relax. Feel free to pm me if you need more reassurance. -Matt
SecretAgent007
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Having gone the acupuncture, herbs, and positive thinking route myself I can tell you that the ride is not without its bumps and obstacles. Acupuncture works with the subtle energy system of the body and helps you to break down energy blockages which are often caused by emotional traumas and limiting beliefs. Our minds and thoughts are very much a part of our energy system. When acupuncure treatments help break energy blockages free it is not uncommon for old traumas and emotions to come to the surface to be released and healed. This is where positive thinking helps so much, because it allows you to release this old emotional baggage in a healthy and productive manner. Sometimes the energy breaks free and just moves on to the next bottleneck or blockage too causing a new wave of symptoms. Just know and trust that you are now and always will be alright. You are in the process of healing and have come so far. The positive results you've experienced so far are your validation that you are on the right path. Maintain focus on that and you'll pass over each additioan wave you hit with much more ease. How many more waves do you have left to hit? It all depends on how much old stuff you need to process through and heal. You're on the right path, trust me! You can do this!
Thank you Matt and Bond007, I really needed to hear that reasurance. I had stopped the acupuncture because it was getting too expensive, so its been 2 weeks since I went. In that time all of my twitching returned, and then some...maybe I need to go back.First I need to find a way to calm myself down and deal with the day. Deep breaths....
jessicajenny
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Hi Emmie,Your post really spoke to me, as a mom. I lost about 9 months of my life with my kids and husband due to overwhelming anxiety and depression from fear. I know exactly how this feels. That was 4 years ago. I won't tell you that twitching goes away completely, but if you can harness that anxiety, it will lessen. The passing of time is your friend. The big, scary diseases don't hide. Once they start, they progress quickly, to the point that any neurologist worth their degree can spot cause for concern. We have to constantly self-talk and remind ourselves that if the specialist is not concerned, neither should we be concerned. There is no reason for a doctor to lie about concern. My advice to you is fake it until you make it. Your strategy of waking up to just get through the day isn't a bad one. When you wake up, make a plan for the day, try to focus on one day at a time. When you are so anxious, it can make it worse to think too far into the future. Try to interrupt those anxious thoughts and replace them with "I feel grateful for..."In my journey, 4 years ago, I did have to start medication to pull me out of the extreme funk. I also started counseling, focusing more on cognitive-behavioral thearapy (CBT.) This obsessive thinking doesn't respond so well to why you had a crappy childhood--you need real tools to turn off the negative self-talk. I know I will always have an element of health anxiety. I liken it to what an alcoholic goes through--for whatever crazy reason, we are addicted to the anxiety of losing our health to some very specific diseases. You can learn to control this anxiety though, and reclaim your life.I wish you the best!
jcmommie, thank you for the advice. I will take it. I will fake it and go through the motions until hopefully, I no longer have to fake it. Its just that a mother's love, and all of the hopes and dreams and worry that come along with it are so strong,....all of the pure worry that comes along with loving your children more than life itself, and thoughts like Dear God what would they do without me??? Those kind of thoughts which are based out of love turn into the most horrifying and paralyzing fear. I think a mental health counselor would do me some good. My daughter is out of school, and my 2 year old is sweetly sleeping in the bed next to me as I look for reassurance on Dr. Google, but all I find is hopelessness. When my boy wakes up, I should take them somewhere and enjoy the day that the Lord has made, rather than focusing on my fasciculating dreadful dreadful thenar. I must find the strength not to waste anymore time. Thank you for helping me realize this, and God bless you.
jessicajenny
Member
Emmie....I wish I could give you a big hug!! I hope you are at the park now, enjoying this day. Two things from my experience: The fear of abandoning your kids is actually taking you away from them now. The worry, anxiety, and fear immobilizes you right now--not the twitching muscles. I really had to focus on each day, make plans for myself and the kids, then make myself do them. While doing them, every time a negative thought came about, and in the beginning it was almost constant---I would remind myself to be present for the kids. Second: give up the Internet research. Completely. Our access to Dr. Google has fed our health anxiety, maybe even created it in the first place. If sites like this help ease your anxiety, then come here for support for as long as you need. But in general, research just ends badly.I am going to follow my own advice, and go outside!
entszelizavetth
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I promise you, I promise you DO NOT have als. My fear was so enormous because of my kids and the fear of losing them. My husband would say " you're losing them now, you're not really here" which was true but didn't help. Stop googling. You will not find the reassurance you need. Every time I tried that, it but me in the butt and ended up scaring me more. Stay here, feel free to pm me, I would even give you my phone # if you wanted because no one understands unless you've been there. You will be ok, you will be here for your kids. Hang in there
Fabina, you need to seek medical help to deal with the anxiety. Not going to your job will only give you more free time to focus on your body, which is obviously not good when you have anxiety like us.Keep doing your everyday task is good for your mind, it will help you not focusing too much on the "bfs things".