Still new at this, so just about everything is a first for me at this point. While I don't buy the line that stress CAUSES BFS, I had a first-hand experience today with how it can really turn things up. I have been summoned for jury duty. I was experiencing what are now routine, low-level twiches and pings in my feet and calves most of the morning. When they brought all of us prospective jurors into the courtroom, I recognized some firends of mine in the gallery. It turns out that the trial involved the rape of their granddaughter who is under 10 years old. As the judge and the lawyers were questioning us, I realized I'd have to say something about my relationship to the little girl's grandparents. My legs were popping like the 4th of July; it felt like bags of worms were crawling all over my ankles; little flutters started up in both thighs. While I was being questioned by the defense team, however, my mind was focused on their questions and I was completely unaware of the demolition derby going on in my legs. Once I was back in the courtroom--and had recovered from the shock of what my friends were in the courtroom for--my body reverted back to minimal activity and I was almost completely twitch-less most of the remainder of the day. Just that relatively little bit of stress caused my nerves to go into hyperdrive, but once it passed, things calmed back down.
Later, a new platoon entered the field and I got these "taps" in the ball of my right foot, near the big toe. Then it hit my left foot; I can't tell if I'm feeling my pulse (if so, my heart beat is, shall we say, irregular and I'm doomed) or what the heck it was. Not buzzing, but tapping is the best way to describe it. It went away after a few minutes and has not come back.
I know to you veterans BFSer's out there, I may seem awfully naive. On the other hand, I don't think serious MNDs come with a rheostat that you can dial up and down, even unwittingly, like that. Or with twitches that happen all over and that come and go at random. Am I correct in assuming that? It was absolutely amazing--a little unnerving that it could spike that fast--but amazing nonetheless. The new sensation of Morse code emanating from the balls of my feet is yet another exciting development but I know things could be much, much worse.
All in all, yet another "interesting" day. I go back into the jury pool tomorrow and can't wait to see what sets me off then.
Mark
Later, a new platoon entered the field and I got these "taps" in the ball of my right foot, near the big toe. Then it hit my left foot; I can't tell if I'm feeling my pulse (if so, my heart beat is, shall we say, irregular and I'm doomed) or what the heck it was. Not buzzing, but tapping is the best way to describe it. It went away after a few minutes and has not come back.
I know to you veterans BFSer's out there, I may seem awfully naive. On the other hand, I don't think serious MNDs come with a rheostat that you can dial up and down, even unwittingly, like that. Or with twitches that happen all over and that come and go at random. Am I correct in assuming that? It was absolutely amazing--a little unnerving that it could spike that fast--but amazing nonetheless. The new sensation of Morse code emanating from the balls of my feet is yet another exciting development but I know things could be much, much worse.
All in all, yet another "interesting" day. I go back into the jury pool tomorrow and can't wait to see what sets me off then.
Mark