I think im going to start dumping all my nonsense into one thread, partially to spare most of you the agony of listening to me babble and end up with dead ends (its easier to avoid when its just one thread). Partially to give the chat room people something to make fun of on a weekly basis. And partly to help me compile my thoughts. I want to say just as a disclaimer, that i need to write things down. Get them out on paper so to speak. And then sit back and stare at them. I've been doing that on my computer, but I feel like if more brains can see whats written, more brains can digest and determine if its nonsense, or if there might be something to it. More importantly, I dont plan to stop poking around until I've run out of ideas. Which may be tomorrow, or next year. In the meantime I hope you all will be gentle, and understand that these are mostly just to toss ideas out there. Get the ideas and the keywords into the search engines. And as I've said many times before, maybe someone far more brilliant than all of us will happen upon something and tie it all together one day. So the fad of the week .... this week:-------------------------When i play with ideas I try to stick to what we know: Anxiety is a foundational aspect of all this. Anxiety control is a significant HELP to all of this. But there is chemistry behind anxiety. Its not some mushy gooey feeling that floats in the Ether. Its a combination of chemical processes and effects. Sometimes it can look like anxiety but in fact be something else. So i'll try to draw any ideas into this foundational truth about stress. Emotional. Physical. Chemical. Dyfunction. Imbalances. you name it. It can all be stress related. And possibly controlled.I posted a thread earlier on Mitochondrial Toxicity. Something the HIV meds I took are well known for. Long term toxicity. It was the elephant in the room for me, but I didn't entertain the idea until recently because doctors kept telling me it couldn't possibly be the HIV meds. But I had a buddy who is an ER doc telling me he's convinced there was "Some sort of toxicity" from the meds going on. Googling Mitochondrial Toxicity ultimately revealed the poster child for the condition: AZT. All over google. The drug that I took. And I didn't just take AZT. I took three others just like it. All at the same time. For four weeks. 10 pills a day. Have not been well ever since. My neuro finally decided it was "HIv medication toxicity of some sort". Unknown etiology. Fair enough. Well maybe we can figure out what sort it is. And maybe there's something in that puzzle that relates to all of us. Because as we all know, while I may end up with "MT" from medications, you may end up with MT or Mitochondrial Dysfunction from something completely different. Or you may not have MT at all. There are often many causes contributing to an end result. I realize I have touched on Gatorade, Electrolytes, Herpes VIrus, and numerous other possibilities. Its all fun thought experiments really. And i love to hear feedback from people because as Suzi pointed out - I dont know what the hell im talking about. LOL !! That being said:The symptoms of Mitochondrial Toxicity are myopathy and peripheral neuropathy and yes, even muscle spasms and twitching. Pretty common, and on the HIV forums you will see guys on AZT constantly talking about all our symptoms. But that doesn't mean much...The next natural question then becomes - what about everyone else on here? Is there anything that we have in common? Well Mitochondrial Toxicity / damage results in a few major problems: The most significant being Lactic Acid buildup. It can cause an acute Lactic Acidosis that can destroy health. Or it can cause a chronic Hyperlactetemia that lingers for years and agitates and messes things up.Exercise intolerance is heavily tied to "MT" and Lactic Acid buildup. When you push a weight up in the air and feel the burn? That's lactic acid. Its instant. And it is very harsh on muscles. This immediately reminded me of people here commenting that regular workouts help significantly. So I started to think - what is so unique about working out regularly? Well I searched - "What reduces lactic acid" ? You end up on bikers and runners forums. The answer is always the same: Training. Training reduces the threshhold for lactic acid to be produced. Someone who does not work out will have a much lower thresshhold for some "LA" to start squirting into their blood stream. Regular workouts reduce lactic acid production overall. And that allows calming. Stamina. etc. So what about the non workout people? Well guess what shoots up when anxiety is a problem? Lactic Acid. Is heavily tied to anxiety. As is Coritol. One of my other fads of the week was the whole cortisol level discussion. So then I think "Alright why did Gatorade help me, and several others?" Is that possibly tied to Lactic Acid somehow? Again another association. Gatorade helps reduce the need for (or presence of?) Lactic Acid:"A study recently published in the Serbian Journal of Sports Sciences revealed that alkaline water and Gatorade® combined reduced heart rates and blood lactate levels in runners during exercise."So is BFS a lactic acid problem? Who knows. Can we get the levels tested? Yes. Do doctors think the test results are foolproof? No. Because levels go up so quickly and easily from unrelated things like physical exertion, that it can cloud your true "values". However ... this is also an interesting tidbit ... When I stretch .... what happens? I can be sitting here without a single muscle spasm for a few minutes, but then I stretch. Full body. Arms all the way up, leaning back, and then relax. Wait for it .... wait for it ..... Boom - eyelid (because I squinted my eyes) ... shoulder (because I stretched) ... thigh (same reason) .... a bunch of little jiggles .... pop, pop, pop here ... there .... and then .... after a handful of seconds or a minute ... all is calm again. When you go in for a Lactic Acid blood test, they say you shouldn't even walk up stairs to the blood draw room because "Lactic Acid builds so quickly". They also tell you during a lactic acid blood draw not to pump your fist with the little ball, because it will immediately cause lactic acid to build up and be pulled with the blood into the syringe. Thats how fast it happens, and .... well ... maybe that's what makes my muscles jiggle when I stretch. I mean really .... if there is one change going on at that very moment, in that very localized place .... it has to be Lactic Acid right? Maybe. Again - these are just thoughts. Im tossing them out. Do with them what you will.I plan to begin pursuing the whole Mitochondrial Toxicity thing. It may lead me to Lactic Acid excesses. It may lead to a dead end. but if I find something that sounds like we might all share... i'll mention it here. I really do think that there is at least one common denominator amongst most of us. What I might deem (this week) as excessive Lactic Acid, or a dysfunction in Lactic Acid production, may in fact be something 6 steps back in the process like Mitochondrial toxicity, or even further back, that is the "True Cause". Something far more technical than I could ever hope to understand. But sometimes you have to start with "what you know". Even if that means a reproducible effect like what happens when I stretch. And from there you can play with theories. And it can be fun! I love how interesting this stuff is - even if its infuriatingly terrifying at times to experience. I suppose the big question is whether its happening back in the spine area (virus, herpes, bacteria, autoimmune) or if its superficial and happening right there under the skin, with little or no "communication" with the "guys in back". Im leaning towards surface at this point, for absolutely no scientific reason. Maybe because Mitochondrial Toxicity (for my case) is surface. Its in the muscle tissues themselves. And mitochondrial dysfunction or damage *can* be seen with muscle biopsy. If I run into anything strange, I'll let you know. Im definitely going to try to get a muscle biopsy. At least because of the MT issues with the meds I took.I think others here have had Biopsies and they showed no abnormalities right? Let me know. And a question: Does a muscle biopsy *always* include looking for mitochondrial abnormalities? or might that be overlooked on a standard biopsy. The whole MT thing is a very specific disorder. And one final thing: I dont want to be "that guy" who has a unique experience and somehow thinks everyone else fits into that mold. I realize nobody here took HIV meds. But there still could be a common denominator.Until my next theory ...