wolfofwallstreet
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I'm sick of this. I'm sick of everything, the sensations, the hopelessness, the fear, the overall just horrible feeling. I've been dealing with this since late June and symptoms still persist. I don't want to make this story too long, so I'll try my best. In July I started getting hot/cold sensations in the legs primarily... Really worried me, it was so strange, I was a WRECK. Going into august I started to notice muscle twitching primarily in the legs, but later on I noticed the twitching happened all over, stomach, back, eyelid, face, tongue, hand, ect. Late august I started to develop muscle cramps in the legs primarily, and also my legs just always feel tired. I also get itchiness at times which is really bothersome, and I just get this overall horrible feeling that I cannot explain. In september I went to the neurologist and had several MRI's and numerous blood tests done which came back normal. I also had an EMG done which just found slight carpal tunnel and ulnar neuropathy... Nothing significant. My neuro said it's anxiety induced - which doesn't make sense to me because I feel these symptoms all the time and they're there even when I'm calm. I asked him about BFS after the EMG and he said he didn't see any fasiculations on the EMG? Does this rule out BFS? Anyways, my symptoms currently are muscle cramps (last for a few days then go away for a while, it seems that they come on when I put my legs under stress), muscle twitching all over, feeling like my head is heavy/unbalanced or just feeling off balance, feeling like im in slow motion, horrible feelings I cannot explain, a lot of the time I find it hard to pronounce words and talk, I am forgetful short-term, I get random aches at times, burning sensations randomly at times, fingers are tingly sometimes, ect. I have so many symptoms I can just keep going. Anyways, I've given up on everything, I've flunked 3 of my college courses, all I do is stay inside all day and rot.. I am full of hopelessness and I feel like my life is over. I really think I have MS... I just want these sensations and horrible feelings which I just cannot explain to go away.. I just wan't to be who I was before this all happened. I feel like theres nothing out there that can help me. My psychiatrist has tried me on several meds, nothing has worked. My life is going downhill, I wonder if I'll ever get myself out of this hole, this has been going on for way to long...TO NOTE: Something I noticed with my symptoms: I feel the best into the night- I feel calmer and more relaxed, and my symptoms don't seem as bad- Gives me a reason to stay up very late at night. Does anyone else experience this?Quick list of my symptoms without the details: Muscle cramps (primarily in legs), burning, itching, stabbing, prickling, muscle twitching all over, severe depression/hopelessness, legs feeling tired, feeling off balance, an overall feeling that I'm falling apart- like my head's heavy, tired, achy, ect. , finding it hard to speak, pronouncing words, getting a strange feeling in my stomach and chest/throat - that nervous feeling, even when im not nervous.
but at night i also feel better usually).I can add also that when I was in the university, i was so tired that i forgot not only how to pronounce words but how to spell them in writing correctly. I was extremely literate girl, reading since I am 4yo, and just making simple spelling mistaked in the wrting was, well, very discouraging. But it was 20 years ago and I am still here. Stress makes that to our brains.As for MS onset... I've read a blog of a lady who's son just got an MS bout last year. Well, he did not complain for so much symptomes - he just lost sight on the one eye completely and he was so weak that he was sleeping 20 hours a day. barely sleeping or just laying down in complete and severe lack of energy. He is ok now by the way - after diagnosis and treatment, ad believe me when he was finally persuaded to go to doctor, he was diagnosed in a few weeks and immediately put to therapy. So should you demonstrate MS picture, your doctor would be able to spot this. By the way all MS people whom I know either personally or by blogs, were diagnosed in a weeks or sometimes even days after onsets (different onsets!)/your final summary of symptomes really looks very typical for BFS, including bloody neurogastral syndrome by the way.Being a student is a hell of job, pressure and struggle. it is quite enough to cause such typical stress reaction as BFS. In MS initial symptomes, as I can judge by personal reports and medical literature I have to translate (bloody creepy experience!) etc., are usually less numerous and various, and such variability and multiple nature rather indicates our old foe BFS...