LaurentI understand your feelings. I think we have been having similar symptoms at different times. I have been through the cramping, twitching in one place, twitching all over,buzzing under my feet (starting on left then two months later on my right) then the buzzing above my ankles then in my big toe and little toe. I had the tingling like *beep* sensations on my feet then on my hands. Lets see where else. Oh yes it all started with the left calf, then my right eye, then my left temple, then my left glut, then my foot/feet then both calf, then thighs, then my left eye, then left shoulder then right shoulder then left fingers then right fingers. Now I have a now and then twitch somewhere on my left jaw and on my neck. The cramps that I thought were MS cramps ended up being a shin splint which went away with physical therapy. The pain on my right hand went away when I followed doctor's orders to give that hand a rest (work on the computer about 10 hours a day) Guess what? It worked. That was in the late summer. At some point during these eight or nine months Ithought I had MS (due to cramps in leg, and my knees giving out when I walk) and then thought of course it isn't MS it is the OTHER one. When my calf twitched I said ok it starting in my leg. Then when I started looking at my face and noticed one eye looking smaller and smile looking crooked then I said oh but of course it is starting in this region first. Then I looked at my pictures as a teen and noticed that my one eye was always like that and the same with the smile. Then when my right hand hurt I was convinced then that it was really starting in my hand because somewhere I read that it starts in the hand xx% of the time. Then when my right hand was ok I went back to my left leg because I was ignoring it and it seemed like a right place to start. Then my left hand. I had a morning ritual of checking my body for twitches. It was that bad. So you see how crazy one can go with this and believe me it is the "self" that causes this kind of thinking or believing. I lost alot of weight worrying about this. So much that certain parts of my body haven't filled back even after I gained the weight back. My wrist are thin and have always been thin. You are exercising right? You have strength, right? You are fine. Oh wait I forgot about the tingling feeling going down my left shoulder. I haven't had that in awhile. I use to have it daily and now I don't.So my twitches move. The ones in my feet lasted three months then suddenly stopped New Year's day then came back only in one foot three months later. They have now stopped. I don't remember when they stopped because I wasn't concerned about those anymore. My focus went to my thighs by then. The pin *beep* feelings in my feet and hands stopped after I drank like two gallons of gaterade. I can't say that it cured it but maybe it was psychosematic but they stopped. One of my labs came back stating my electrolytes were off so I thought what the hell it can't hurt. Your tingling will stop. It will. Your just in a bad place (anxiety wise) and it really does affect your twitching. Someone at work came up to me all upset about something then all of a sudden my butt started going crazy. No relation? Same thing with a teacher's conference and my right eyelid started twitching. We anxious people are more sensitive to these changes.I am going on and on. This is what helped me (other than the gaterade).1)Go to see a therapist. Talk it out and if necessary get meds. (Klonopin has been a God send) So has the elavil because now I can sleep. 2) Spend time with family/friends that you like. I was so scared to be alone because then I would start thinking about the twitches. Keeping busy was a big, big help. When I knew that ok Saturday I will be going over Mary and John's house and their kids will play with mine and I will have normal conversation with people (not medical talk) it was something to look forward to. Something that kept my mind off the twitches for the next five hours. It was great.Spend time with people you know you won't start talking about medical stuff. This way you will slowly be able to go back to who you once were. You will begin to see that life is good and that once upon a time twitches didn't rule your world.I knew I was getting better when someone told me that I wasn't moving around so much and that I can actually sit down without moving one of my legs. It felt good to hear it.I knew I was getting better when all of a sudden I noticed that I was checking myself in the morning.You will get there but you need to do the work. Only you can do it. No one is causing your suffering but yourself. You have a feeling (twitches) then you start thinking about this feeling and then you get these thoughts. Remember feelings are one thing but thoughts are something else. Thoughts are not real. Don't create your own suffering. Let the twitches be.Oh I forgot to mention the body jerks at night and in the morning. They are gone, too. Really, do get help. If you have insurance to pay your three EMGs you can afford to see a good therapist. Get out with your friends and family and get off of the internet (so says someone who is on it). But seriously, limit your internet and replace it with good conversation and good times with your friends. Who wouldn't want to go out with friends for coffee or a movie. Hey it takes you out of your zone for at least three hours. Little by little. You can do it.I wasn't ok to invite people over because that was too much work but going over friends and bringing over some pizza and just chilling somewhere outside my environment was truly good for me. If I was at home chances were that I would get on the internet and..... you know what I would be searching.
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