Back with Worries About ***

[nikkikitty]

Hi everyone, Have not been on here since March and thought I was done worrying about *** but here I am again. Last Sept I had a strong twitch in my arm for about two hours. I have always been a hypochondriac so I immediately googled it and found ***. Panicked for a while but since two weeks later nothing else had happened I forgot about it. Then in the October my best friends boyfriend was diagnosed with ***. A week later my eye started twitching and didn't stop for a week. Then I started twitching all over. Then I found a strange dent on the front of my hand. By the Jan I was a mess and had been referred by my GP to a neuro (for my peace of mind according to doc as he said nothing was wrong). Saw the neuro in March and he said there was no sign of anything like *** and not to worry about it. He did not give me an EMG. Twitches had stopped by then so I forgot about the 'atrophy' and got on with my life. Decided to get fit and lost 30lbs in weight and started exercising every day. Then 3 weeks ago I had to stop exercising due to my house move and at the same time my thumb started twitching. Was on and off every few days but got me feelign anxious again. Then last week I had to carry a very heavy bag for about 40 mins and afterwards my arm was shaking uncontrollably for about an hour. Arm felt funny and trembly for a few days. Now I have noticed a ridge in the palm of my hand. It is a vertical ridge directly under the ring finger and is about an inch long (so goes from the bottom of the ring finger to the first horizonal line on the palm). Am starting to freak out again and don't know what to do to stop myself. I can't feel any weakness yet but every morning I wake up worried that the ridge will be worse or the finger above will be weak.Will this *** fear ever really go away?Nikki

 

[HeyEveryone]

Nikki I and many people here know how you feel. Look over the "dents and atrophy" post at the start of the page to put your mind at ease. The wobbly feeling in the arm is no doubt the muscle hasn't been worked like that in a while so it's readjusting. For the first few days after I started walking I felt stiff, and the insides of my legs shook. I get the occasional tremor when I hold something, but I went bowling Friday afternoon-even using a 15 pound ball for a frame-so rest assured you are fine. Also remember your ring finger does not have the same amount of dexterity as others. Unfortunately, as our BFS waxes and wanes, so does our anxiety. When we're stress, things flare up, and because of the flare up we think it's the onset of a dreaded disease, increasing our anxiety, and the symptoms, and the cycle goes on and on. I know because I'm guilty of it too. You're healthy and well, and you're not alone. *HUGS*Ebony

 

[DJH621]

Nikki,I have the same ridge or line or indentation on my left hand in the same place, (not my right though)---I'm sure it's fine, looking for dents, etc. can be dangerous. I only do it to check and reassure someone here that I have it too. Shackiness from carrying the bag, etc. is all part of BFS as well as normal. When my friend and I used to work out daily at the gym (years ago), we would laugh at how are arms would shake when we tried to shift the gears in the car after we worked out! Oh to be able to laugh at these things again....You're fine. Best Wishes, Denise

 

[suegirl]

Funny I have the same line on my left hand--not on my right either. I never paid any attention to it. It must be normal!!