Angry About My Lipids Going Up

[AllGoodHere]

So I go to this dietician/nutritionist today and she asks for the low down. Basically my GP sent me bc my lipids are going up despite my good diet, low weight, low bp - to see if she could suggest anything. When we are done with me trying to explain how I got there (my doc thinks I already have enough weirdness aka BCFS so doesn't want to even try statins) she says "I can tell you are angry and it is understandable - I get it all the time when I tell, for example, diabetics they have to change their diet & their life. And you are in mourning because you have partially lost your health through no fault of your own and you feel the loss because you have always been active and healthy. If you can finish turning over rocks, then you can gain total acceptance and move on, leaving the anger." Now, she isn't a shrink but it kind of hit home as there are days when I am so *beep* about having this crap, about dealing with the pain involved - it can be so intrusive and restricting. And on those days for sure I am less able to deal with other's crap and go hole up in my office or retreat into more work or a novel to escape at home. Not consistently but just recently things have gotten worse for me physically. Man I didn't even know it showed - but then again she is attuned to it as she sees it alot - people reacting to the knowledge that things are never going to be like they were again and there is nothin they can do about it. Can anyone relate to this? Granted this is a downturn for me and it will get better but it is food for thought.

 

[GrizzlyLeader]

Yep, whenI wake up each morning I ask myself if there will ever be a time when I feel normal again. But then when every thing isnt twitching or runbling so much, Im kind of grateful that lying in bed not being able to take care of myself isnt the new normal. But yeah, this stuff sux....

 

[Krackersones]

I of course relate all too well. You are so basically positive and proactive I know you will do better than most at handling this. I try the simple approach most of the time of trying to switch thoughts of loss to thoughts of what I still have and why I am happy about that. I'm sure you do this too. I look up to you so the fact that even you get discouraged makes me feel more normal.I am glad to hear you are staying away from statins. My father in law is battling muscle wasting caused by taking them. He was a very muscular tall man who works on his large property hauling wood around and plowing fields so I was shocked when my husband told me that he could visibly see the atrophy caused by the Lipitor. His father is a physician (oral surgeon) but as is true with many people he ignored the early warning signs of muscle pain and kept taking the drug and now he is being told that he has inflammation and has to take prednisone and the problem may not be reversible.Krackersones

 

[AllGoodHere]

Yes Krackersones, from one rock-turner-over'er to another, it is hard to gain acceptance of something if you are not done investigating it. Until we have finished with this (turned over the last rock)it will be hard to completely move on. It is just difficult to know when enough is enough. But then again when you read an article such as this:where perseverance and money are pushing research which is revealing new insights... you think, yeah, look! it's the lurking mutating viruses after all (perhaps - the study isn't verified yet).So maybe I will follow this through and see this exercise physiologist. I know I am done with the neurologists and many other specialists but since my main complaint has to do with hyper activity of my muscles, the pain and damage they cause, it makes sense to at least look at this angle. Lately my intake of ibruprofen is accelerating - but it is impossible to function without it so I need to figure something out. The anger and mourning is not healing to say the least.In doing all this reading of medical journal articles in the last few days, I am finding that again, there is so much I don't know about the actual workings of my body on the molecular level: 'monocytes are released into tissues after damage-inducing exercise and can stick around for months secreteing cytokines which mediate a wide range of metabolic events such as muscle degredation'. Well, in my case my muscles can exercise with or without my consent and if I do get them going with a strenuous activity they refuse to calm down for weeks - just thinking of what is happening at the cellular level is mind-boggling for the layperson. So hopefully this is my last investigation. Will let you know what comes of it but I suspect that it will take months to work through this one.