hCapitalize
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As a rationalist and a researcher myself I try to analyse everything and categorise it.I have now since 1984 seen four neuro's and I think the last of these who was of an age to be contemporary with the first was the most perfunctory in his exam.The internet is a problem, because it is so easy for one to find out from teaching sources what should take place during a thorough exam, and to make it worse I nearly bought a neurological textbook yesterday, not because I wanted to find out more about the tests but because I need a good textbook on neuroanatomy to enhance my understanding of what I am currently researching, in order to better understand what I am reading about brain studies of autistic people.Anyway, knowing too much is a sure sign that I am going to do comparisons between neuros, and reading this board only adds to the dissatisfaction that A did not test Y and B did not test X and none of them carried out test C or whatever.Perhaps what we all need to do is draw up our own menu of neurological investigations, stand there and order the neuro to carry them all out. Essentially I am back at the point of despair, what can you do, when the neuro's are not really interested or concerned, what can you do before they start regarding the whole process as factitious disorder?My conclusions are that it is a waiting game, we are all like Mr Micawber waiting for something to turn up. I have a condition that is causing me pain and discomfort and I have the perception that it is slowly but surely progressing.No amount of CBT is going to change that perception.Why this cognitive dissonance all the time between what the neuro sees, and what you "know" (or think you know) to be otherwise.Maybe the brain scan will result in a big "told you so" indicating there is something that might be the cause, or maybe I will remain in limbo if it shows nothing. It just seems more than co-incidence to me that most of my problems are on one side of my body. Right now I feel a stiffness in my muscles from my scalp down to my toes, only on the left hand side.I just do not any longer trust anybodies subjective assessment of strength, a neuro is just as likely to be off as I am. I want facts and figures and I just don't know where I'll get them.