Yesterday I found out that a very good friend of mine has committed suicide after 4 years from the death of her husband. She could never get over his death and has decided to leave a daughter behind and commit suicide. She had a major influence on my life, was like a second mother to me, and I simply cannot believe she's gone.
Incidentally, when I found out about her death, I stopped twitching completely, buzzing and all my perceived pain has gone. I don't know if this is a coincidence but I am wondering whether now that I am suddenly not obsessed with myself anymore all the perceived health issues have disappeared.
I don't know. I almost feel ashamed for ever even obsessing over myself when a friend was in need of help and I wasn't there.
Incidentally, when I found out about her death, I stopped twitching completely, buzzing and all my perceived pain has gone. I don't know if this is a coincidence but I am wondering whether now that I am suddenly not obsessed with myself anymore all the perceived health issues have disappeared.
I don't know. I almost feel ashamed for ever even obsessing over myself when a friend was in need of help and I wasn't there.