MeaganGranger
Well-known member
Hey everyone.... wow, I have read some pretty astounding posts this morning, and a thread that has been locked by administrators, from further posting. That is definitely a first for me on this board...... Anyway, reading that thread was an incredibly empowering and odd experience for me, it made me feel like I have come so far... and I missed posting on my one year dx anniversary about a month ago, and in some ways I am happy about it.My bfs started nearly 2.5 years ago, with a diagnosis only a year ago. It wasn't until this last summer that I really felt like I started to calm down and accept that things were okay, and that my body was not eating itself alive, despite all the other odd medical things I have going on (weird headaches, positive ANA, arachnoid brain cyst). I have definitely learned, and am still learning that playing connect the dots to try and explain or conjure a medical condition related to these "conditions" is not helpful, especially when my doctors insist that there is no connection. I just can't live my life like that anymore, and I am fighting the active battle to take my life back in that respect, and I think I have succeeded greatly over the past few months. Even if one of these things were to ever "develop" into something else, I have decided that I don't have control over that. Even if I did I am not sure how much of the precious time life has given me I would want to spend to try and figure it out. Right now I am focused on treating any discomfort, and just making sure I live a healthy and active life!! I am not saying that if I ever have a bad bfs flare again, that I won't come back. We all fall off the horse, and there are a lot of good people here that I trust with my feelings and their knowledge. In fact visit the board often and read, but I don't post much anymore, unless I really feel moved to do so. Like this morning, reading that now "locked" thread, I almost felt so distant and disconnected from it, not that I didn't care, but that those feelings have faded for me so much now, that I felt empowered by it.I am sorry if this seemed like a disjointed post, it was really meant to say that I missed posting on my 1 year and that I am alive and well and happy 
) I wish everyone the best of luck and will pop in time to time to see how everything is going. If you are new here is my advice; I know you are scared, we have all been there.... while it doesn't seem like it, you WILL make it through this a healthy and happy human being. Just remember that time, family, friends and life are all very precious, don't spend too much of it chasing something that isn't there...
) I wish everyone the best of luck and will pop in time to time to see how everything is going. If you are new here is my advice; I know you are scared, we have all been there.... while it doesn't seem like it, you WILL make it through this a healthy and happy human being. Just remember that time, family, friends and life are all very precious, don't spend too much of it chasing something that isn't there...