8 Months of Struggling: Need Reassurance

sparksense

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Well it has been 8 months now and this is such a struggle. Just wanted to get a little reassurance. Before this bout started in August of 2004 I rarely twitched. It all began when I attemtped to quit smoking early 2004. I was doing well then all of a sudden I became very anxious. Started feeling light headed which cause more anxiety because I have had bouts of vertigo in the past. It would last a few weeks then go away, thus the Doctor said it was viral. Well my Doc put me on Lexapro for the anxiety and that is when I felt my first twitch as well as some tremors. Three days after starting I noticed my pupils were unequal so that sent me over the edge. After research on that I discovered that SSRI's can cause unequal pupils. After about a month on the lexapro I stopped. In the meantime I had an MRI done that came back normal. I was feeling pretty good when one day I had an anxious moment and 10 minutes later my calves were twitching all over! I ignored it for a couple of days but when it did not stop I was sure I had a ***. I had sever panic and anxiety and actually felt like I was dying. Laying in bed I was twitching and jerking all over the place. Had dry heaves and could not breathe. My partner took me to the ER (he for the anxiety, me for the twitching-I was sure that was the problem but he knew it was anxiety). They put me on klonopin and zoloft.
I was refered to a neuro who did all the strength test and said he thought it was benign fasics, which I had read all about thanks in part to this site. He ordered an EMG for two months later as well as an MRA for my pupil. In those following months I had hot spots in a few places including under my eye for three days, my thumb for a couple, and the most freaky was my left bicep for three days. It was pretty severe. Scared me to death but went away. The twitching in my calves and sides of my feet continued almost continuously. I try really hard not to look cause that causes me more anxiety. I have leared to sit certain ways to make them stop, like cross legged. Well the EMG was normal as was the MRA. I decided it was time to stop the obsessing. Easier said than done.
In the past month I have stopped the zoloft believing that it may be contributing to the twitches. I am the type of person that just wants to know WHY these are happening and continue to search the net, which as we all know is not smart. Of course my anxiety has been a little higher since stopping the zoloft. The twitching is there everyday, not any worse than before but I am just more aware I guess. I still take half of a half mg of Klonopin at night which always helps me relax, as well as a glass of red wine. I get occasional twitches throughout the day in various places and they do not bother me much. The calves and feet thing is what drives me mad. Anyway, sorry for the long post just wondering if this at all sounds familiar. Hope everyone is well and thanks for you time
 
i was a 1 1/2 pack a day smoker for 13 years. stopped in oct 2003. i env3r ever twitched in my life. 1 month later the twitches started off small then i got on net and they went wild. i went to the doc in dec 2003 and he said i was from me stopping smoking. he said i was like a herion addict without my herion. i was going nuts and he begged me to go to see the quack doctor that day. not tommorrow that day. i went. neeedless to say in my heart i knew he was wrong and iw as right. over the next few months i went to shrinks ,neuro's, internists and chiro's who all said itt was my anxiety. each time i knew they were wrong as if it was anziety it would come and go and not stay all the time. anyway the last doc i saw for this was march 2004. after that i said enoughs enough and went on my life as this battle was my mone against me. although i still twitch i've learned to block most of it.whats bothering me the most now is lower eyelid twitching. my calves and inner feet don';t really bother me and i twithc only a few times a day elsewere. of course the anxiety returns when a new spot hits . its funny when i put my last cig down i enver wanted to smoke again and the hell i've been threw for 17 months now i enver smoked 1 cig and never will. i've said many times if i didn't quick smoking maybe this would have never come on but i was certian if i didn't quit smoking it would kill me
 
Okay you two, don't start smoking again whatever you do! We are all trying to figure out what causes this. Is it something we ate, something we're not eating, some prescription we may have taken, some virus we came in contact with, too much exercise, not enough exercise, too much coffee, wine, not enough wine, :LOL: etc? I have given up trying to find out what caused it and I'm trying to find out what can fix it! Any ideas? I've tried the vitamin route. Nothing! I twitch every 30 seconds!
My next venture is 3 months of yoga, pilates and meditation. I think it's going to take 3 months of reprograming the mind from all the stress etc. Anyway, we're all trying to figure out why, but believe me, after seeing both my parents die of lung cancer, you don't want to die that way!
 
hey i'll never smoke again. i could barely breath i was hacking so much.since i quit i've never coughed again. bfs is crappy but theres a lot worse things
 

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